`i've waited all my life somewhere along the line, i seem to have lost motivation in blogging about My Life. there isnt really much to talk about anyway and the fact that i dont like to blog help much. unless there is any significant event that i have the strongest impulse to blurt it out here, i hardly like to visit my blog even. but a chanced meeting with two close friends tonight made it an exceptionally special day in my life and i would like to leave a little marker in this inconspicuous Memory Room of mine as i am so fond of identifying it as. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Thursday, October 04, 2007
the eyes of these two friends perform the effects of two powerful mirrors that manifest the character of Me as a person that i am most of the time. it wasnt a comforting nor heart-warming reflection. if asked to give a brief recount of my feelings at that moment, i would say i distinctively felt an acute wave of poignant regret for my self but given a chance should history is to replay, i know, i would change nothing.
but today is the day when the wall got pulled down for a good six hours and there was frank and honest sharing. we discovered each other just more than a fair bit better. im glad it happened. it's strange how years of friendship have went past and just on an unsuspecting night like this, a vast capacity of doubts and uncertainties was unravelled about each other. it's amazing how much deeper you get to know about the person who sits in front of you many days of your life. how you have always sat together, the countless drinks that you have swallowed, the various places you chill, the different times of the day, but never a situation arises for the kind of conversation that we have had. maybe close to it, but no. we never open up in this manner before.
im very glad we talked about the stuff we were on. im thankful that even after the recent monday, i had another stayed-till-seven-in-the-morning understanding-each-other-better session. and i just want to put a little marker on tonight in my Memory Room in remembrance of it.
sometimes, i feel that my life is some kinda cosmological joke. it's funny why i felt that way. life, in my point of view, is strange to a certain extent. i cant quite put a finger on it, but it's certainly not funny to me in any manner at all.
9:13 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll