
`i've waited all my life oh yar. `l am my own man
alrite. let me see. had the last of my common tests today `l am my own man
easter celebration later. `l am my own man
my beautiful girl `l am my own man
Dreaming of You `l am my own man
tell me where to start `l am my own man
`l am my own man
okok. this comes a bit slow but yar. im now blogging for my fri-sat overnight queue-up at the creative fest. was there with jon and chiki. mans.. i was so busy updating ck that jon actualy fell aslp when i was tokin larh! *bish* haha. but it was great fun. and i only smoked like 2, 3 sticks the whole time? yar, ure right. cause my mouth was busy chattin. heheh. in a short 2-3 hours time, i believe and hope, i've told ck al the latest and of course the hottest gossips she had missed the whole time. cant blame her really. it was just me and jon. but ehhehe, now ck part of our new triplet gang. :)) love her mans. she is one of the few sngs juniors who can make it other than my dearest PiG. :D `l am my own man
a lit preview on my visit to NUH: `l am my own man
mans.. big thanks to al my fwns esp my classmates for the mon dumb hooha. sorrie to freak ure out. i was pretty much scared outta my wits too. apologetic look. `l am my own man
A last tribute to her `l am my own man
Town today again. `l am my own man
Review on Robot: `l am my own man
oh ya.. that sure sent a chill down my spine when i first heard abt it. shake the feeling away. `l am my own man
Everybody's Changing `l am my own man
yi fang mian.. `l am my own man
我一直坐在咖啡廳的角落 沒有人發現我還在難過 `l am my own man
here comes the rain again `l am my own man
tennis was a blast on wed. it wasnt one hell of a training but it was to me. had drills on ball skills and physical training which is a set of short circuits including several shuttle runs. Robin is getting tough on us. He said to Don, "that's the only way we can improve our skills and prepare for IVP". I aspire to get in. But it's fierce competition. Very fierce indeed. `l am my own man
went to watch constantine with fei mei just now. it was just great. a lit reminiscence of matrix but i love it. i simply love matrix but i failed to watch the last sequel. so gonna get the vcd that i have been promising myself for so long. i really hope constantine has a sequel.. mans.. aint im tired. but i stil have to do my proj den study for my test tmr. time always seem to be either crawling or that there's just not enuf to spare. but one thing i wish it will remain true. that time will wash away al the pain and hurt inside as it passes. give me more time. i noe i can do it.. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
one very impt thing i almost forgot to say,
"i miss theone.."
i miss the comfort she gives.
sadsad.
6:27 PM.
when i stepped outta the room at 710pm. :)
but next week is the beginning of my exams, so no need to be too happy also.
pull a long face.
kane is so so so busy! mans..
i think attachment life is worse than schooling life huh.
pat kane on the shoulder. shake head.
oh my fwn from nus having a production. it's a play held at fort canning.
15bucks per head. it's on this coming thur, fri or sat.
interested party give me a call yar? :D
late.
guess i better retire to bed.
the books waiting for me early the next day.
arghhh.
tell me how can i stil smile yar.
:((
6:10 PM.
Monday, March 28, 2005
i wonder how it's gonna feel stepping back into church again.
ponder..
went for jon's bdae party yest.
i was so full from al the food.
i was simply amazed to see chiki and dora picking another slice of pizza.
gape. and dora act asked," arent you tempted by al the food in front?"
i nearly wana say," i feel like puking just looking at it."
but i guess i shld just keep that piece of comment to myself since there're ppl eating. :))
aniwae, the party was pretty relaxed and entertaining.
on the wae home, i managed to learn a bit of cantonese from chiki.
and EXCUSE ME.
im not tryin to chase after any girls thou the lines i learnt doesnt relly prove otherwise.
shrug. im just tryin to find an excuse to sneak off with ck.
den our dear feimei can have some private time with dora ya! :D
oh ya.
there's this tch guy who's initially tryin to pose as an acji-cian and msged dora.
saying she has unique and interesting hair and contradict himself later by
saying it's not relly so.
ROLL MY EYES BIG TIME.
wad's up with tch guys mans.
they're relly irritants mans.
(okays. prob except from xx)
and the one maro is dating,
he has to be from tch also.
kaoz.
5:42 AM.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
i slept with theone most of the time tonight. she's such a beautiful girl. :))
okie man.. she just burped out some milk.. uhh.. heheh.
better go check the girl out. that's al for today!
monks tonight!! yays!
7:28 AM.
Friday, March 25, 2005
Franne Gold & Tom SnowLate at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Coraz can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Cte necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, cte extraLate at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly
Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight!
4:02 PM.
too many sleepless nights..
im trying to walk away.
when night falls
like a fallen bird
i try to reach for my wounds.
6:49 AM.Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
mine's not too bad. :D
2:20 AM.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
oh! had a lit catch-up session with PiG just now. nothing much really. and seriously, thanks for reminding me kerrie, i gotta stop talking abt her mans. my appetite is bad enuf. and, no more hospital visits. yes devon, thanks for chipping that in. sighh.
oh ya. one more thing to add in.
to kerrie: ure braces are really good mans. now i wish my teeth is as neat as ures. pull a face.
not to forget listening and being so consoling when i called you last wed. it was hell for me den. thank god i managed to reach you. hugtight.
to weiling: miss ure crappy jokes mans. till now, you never fail to amaze me with the kinda words that shoot out from ure mouth can. :)
to sheena: pity you went off earlier. but one thing i've observed tho. our dearest sheena is gettin prettier and prettier. no joke. i was tellin kerr and wl that you look the best among the three of you now. eheh. :))
4:47 PM.
*definitely more HUMANE than sgh.
why? cause they wont make u queue up and pay before chkin on u.
but.
they pulled me outta the cab so fast and wheeled me inside so instantaneously,
my poor classmates who sent me down cant even locate me.
and so they went,"where's kris??goodness!!"
*screwed up checkup?
they took my bloodtest to see whether im HIV+
ROLL MY EYES BIGG TIME.
*unconventional question?
one nurse actualy said this. "are you married?"
????? and i nearly flipped on the sick bed.
[by the time i reached this part, im seriously doubting whether im being sent to the right place.
huge sadness mounting high]
one more unforgettable event to top it up.
they act pulled down my shorts to jab my butt in front of this gorgeous-looking caucasian trainee doctor before i can even shout my protest. sighh. where is my rights mans. :((
4:30 PM.
and to al my fwns who care, love you guys. yes that's you devon kane and their gerfwns..aj and so.was pretty down lately. thanks for tryin to accompany me and stuff. give ure a bigg huggg! now, i must study hard. cant believe exams just next week. :(((
3:57 PM.
Friday, March 18, 2005
I just dun understand why ure so full of lies.
I called you yesterday night.
You told me the background voice was ure dad's.
And i called you to call me from ure house.
You told me not to get you into trouble.
Den you admitted ure at ure girlfwn's house.
Having a hockey gathering.
You told Kerrie and group ure having tuition.
Den when i asked why i only hear that guy's voice.
You went all silent.
And again. You admitted ure at ure guy fwn's house.
You told me den.
I have no right to interfere in ure affairs.
We have broken up.
And den i asked. Why did you lie.
When you said you wana be there for me.
What you have posted in ure blog.
And den after you said.
Fine. Den you wont be there for me.
You told me to stop bothering you.
That we have broken up a very long time ago.
I begged ure pardon.
For we have only broke up a month ago.
You told me
It was months.
I noe he is nearby.
My heart was in such pain.
To hear you speak to me with such distaste.
I have only asked a simple question.
Why did you lie.
You told me when you broke up with me.
You dun have the time and effort for this relationship.
And den you said ure feelings faded.
You said you were sorry.
It hurts so much.
But i let go.
Thinking for you meant the best for us.
I noe it would have been worse if you held on selfishly to me
At least you told me to let go den.
Now i noe.
Cause if we're together
It would have been so hard to hide.
My heart feels such a deep stab.
When the hurt is too great to bear.
I messaged you after which you din reply for ages.
Den you explained cause I need to move on.
It sounds so cold. But I noe it's true.
My heart was crying so badly.
But it's something I have to deal with it myself.
No one can help me.
And den.
i began my climb out of darkness slowly.
One month later.
i called you.
You were alred in a guy's house at 9evening.
You gave me up.
For a boy whom you met just a while ago.
Now i have finally understood.
You have treat me as nothing
But a substitute.
You dun wan to contact me now
For ure alred busy socializing,
going to ure guy fwns' house.
If there's something I can change.
I wish I can see all these earlier.
If you would have really wan me to let go
You would have told me about all these.
Den I would definitely have given it up.
For there's nothing i hate more den infidelity.
You knew my weakness and that's you.
Even before the call last night.
I was still having this glimmer of hope.
That if you dun love me
I can still love you inside my heart.
Now my heart is dead.
When it was broken
It cried and wish you have not treated it like this.
Now it's dead
And a new one springs alive.
And it knows finally.
You are after all
Nothing but a shell of lies.
No one else matters
But ureself.
2:26 PM.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
I skipped tennis. badbad.. shake head.
Mans.. watched Howl's the second time.
This round. I had a fitful slep. for a lit while.
Saw a few ppl. Otherwise.. Not a very eventful trip.
Shucks! i just realized i forgot to see my class tutor this noon.
awww.. sux sux sux sux..
Home this friday. Anyone?
12:45 PM.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Fabulously fantastic!!
A must-watch show of the time!!
Better den Ice-Age i must say.
Unstoppable laughter. Refreshing theme and plot.
Oh ya, not to mention Robin William's sexy voice. hehe.
:)) mans.. wad you waiting for? go catch it girl. grin.
P.S. I love 24-7 Coffee Club. beams..
12:10 PM.
Monday, March 14, 2005
The catching up session was really good thou wl's not here. The poor girl..
Must be so deprived of slep.. hahah.
Sleepover next week yar. :))
Shall look forward to it. gringrin.
8:23 AM.
Friday, March 11, 2005
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
1:01 PM.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
fang qi de nian tou chao wo yong lai
rang wo gan dao yi si si de ji mo..
dan zi xi xiang xiang..
ni jiu li wo heng jing.
yin wei,
wo yi ba ni lao lao de chang zai wo xin li
ni hui yong yuan yong yuan de huo zai li mian.
a lit note..
all the best to you
i know you did it for us
be careful when your in m'sia..
hugtight. kiss your forehead lightly..
5:15 PM.
其實早就已經忘了怎麼說 就算再怎麼捨不得 你還是走了
我還不想承認這事實 怎麼會變成這個樣子 沒有了 我真的什麼都沒有了 就像一個廢人
回家的路上我哭了 眼淚再一次崩潰了 無能為力這樣走著 再也不敢驕傲奢求了
我還能夠說些什麼 我還能夠做些什麼 我好希望你會聽見 因為愛你我讓你走了
★我讓你走了Baby
5:12 PM.
Monday, March 07, 2005
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
2:52 PM.
Saturday.
My godmum sent me to skol. I must say she's really a sweet lit thing. Always there for me.. i wonder how i can ever make it without her at this trough period of my life. She told me something very significant. Dun ever let anyone cripple you in life. I had been crippled. But my wound is recovering very bitterly and intermittently but absolutely. I transfer my focus to my work tennis and pool. These are my main concerns nowadays.
Had a friendly match with NJc. I must say they are really good. The boys won us but we managed to win the girls. grin real wide. And we all thought they would trash us. hahah. Wad a burst of real satisfaction and joy. Life is getting better.
Gonna play pool later. Got three presentations next week. My group is the first to present for all three presentations. It just seems so that every group that im in, they would be the first to present. I do bring bad luck huh. Sighh.
Rushing through my projects now. So i can have time for pool. hahah. My grades are getting better. I got 73 for my stats which i so surely thot i wld fail cause i screwed up the 6o marks qn. Thank God.. Den i got 75 for my itab which i always score pathetically. Though it was very much by chance and not by knowledge, im happie nonetheless. Den 80 for my stats test again which i miss previously for some unworthy reason. Teacher gave me another chance to take the test again. Wad a nicie. But i got46 for my accounting. Sighh. I do hope my year end results would be all As and Bs and not just Bs and Cs. Gonna pump in all my energy into my studies. I got a very strong supporter with monetary incentives too. All's not lost. Not yet..
Changes are undeniable.
But many a times
They are irreversible.
It might hurt profoundly
But life doesnt stop there
We still have to move on.
There is no need for nostalgia
Especially since you are just fine moving forward.
1:37 AM.
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
4:44 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll