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`i've waited all my life
`to cross this ~~line~~
`to the only thing that's true

Sunday, July 31, 2005

guest blogging here. ;)

all i need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
down the ride till the very end, is me and my boyfriend.

i'd be there for you if somebody hurts you,
even if that somebody was me.
sometimes i trip on how happy we could be.
and so i put this on my life,
nobody or nothing will ever come between us.
and i promise ill give my life,
my love and trust

one more time.

i put this on my life,
the air that i breathe in,
all that i believe in.
i promise ill give my life,
my love and trust.

all i need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
down the ride till the very end, is me and boyfriend.

<3, eliza.

`l am my own man
10:42 PM.

Saturday, July 30, 2005

had the worst clique confrontation today.
damn glad everything managed to resolve peacefully.
it pulled our whole gang closer and tighter in bond too.
and so for this little conflict, im thankful for it.

a little extract from my dearie's messages..

"when ure lips softly touched mine
and my heart starts pounding furiously at my chest,
a surge of pain and sadness,
enveloped my whole heart.

that's when it hit me how much i yearn,
for even just a lit touch of ures.
and that's when i realised just
exactly how much i miss you,
with all my heart and soul.

i've never told you
but when i heard abt wad joy said abt you,
my heart was so painful
i felt like a thousand daggers,
had shot thru my entire soul.

i hated wad she said abt you,
and all i wanted to do was to shield you
from al that she's doing.
i felt a new resolve harden inside of me,
i'll never let anyone harm you, ever.

and whenever im with you,
im being brought up to cloud nine,
im so blissful and i noe,
nthg can ever tear me away from you.
and when we ----censored---- on wed,
i felt like i have never lived before.

baby,
you noe i love you,
with all my heart and soul.
and i want to make you the happiest person
ever in this world.
thank you for being mine baby,
ure the best thing that ever happened."

wad can i say.
no one is able to touch me like she does.
she's always dere by my side unwavering.
hell with her age.
she's all i want and need now.
and for that, i ask for nthg more.

i just wana lead a simple happy life with my gerfwn.
and i am contented.

"and i give you all my love like how you give every bit of ureself to me dearie."

`l am my own man
7:44 PM.

Friday, July 29, 2005

Jian Jian Dan Dan

i cant believe it.. but my dearie is simply so lovable.
give you a lit squeeze.

congrats for coming champion in the competition my love.
i knew you can do it. :)

cant wait for tm to come.
kane's gg to add to the no.
three of us just to see you, my little darling must be honoured ya.
gringrin.
anyway, got a little surprise for you tm.
hushhush.. :))

went to town with aJ after lunching at stnicks.

it was so cool wad happened. wink at aJ.
our little secret ya. hehe.

swimming at yck pool with the down syndrome kid.
i actually think she's quite adorable.

on a hindnote, i cant believe how hypocritical some girls can get.
and yes. it's girls.

cant wait cant wait.. FLASH A BIG SMILE. :D

i hope you noe, how significant a role you play in my life my dear..

`l am my own man
3:20 PM.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

wed afternoon

soft gentle brushing..
just past the very surface of ure skin
erotic touches at the very niches that make you tremble with pleasure
the sexy teasing of each others' lips
and the grabbings in the dark
the whole world seems to exist just for the two of you
all you can feel is the heat from each other
the finale being the blissful climax
and everything just settles down like dust
like the aftermath of an earthquake.

it's not just sex.

it's the very idea of the tight bonding between you and ure partner. the click that sets everything in place. and i must admit. it is damn-rock good. it only get better trust me. grin.

i love it when we're joined together as one.
everything just seems so beautiful and wonderful.

and my mum loves you.
it's so amazing.
nothing can get any better than all these.

you just mean so much to me eliza.

i love you so much.
hug my dearie close to me.

`l am my own man
10:20 AM.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

HAUNTED

Depression is seductive..

it offends and teases, frightens you and draws you in, tempting you with its promise of sweet oblivion, then overwhelming you with a nearly sexual power, squirming past ure defences, dissolving ure will, invading the tired spirit so utterly that it becomes difficult to recall that you ever lived without it..

or to imagine that you might live that way again.

with al the guile of satan himself, depression persuades you that its invasion was all ure own idea, that you wanted it all along. it fogs the part of the brain that reasons, that knows right and wrong. it captures you with its warm, guilty hateful pleasures, and, worst of al, it becomes familiar. all at once, you find ureself in thrall to the very thing that most terrifies you. ure work slides, ure fwnships slide, ure love relationship slides, but you scarcely notice.

to be depressed..
is to be half in love with disaster.

i remembered what she said that night.

it suddenly hit me in a rush of adrenaline.

i wish she can take back her words.. but i noe,
the wound will not stop its gushing. touch it lightly..

i really wish the words haven come from ure mouth.
i really do.

`l am my own man
7:12 AM.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

on another note..

i've been having very regular bowels early in the morning when i wake up. and im proud to say they look pretty healthy. HEHE.

but the process is so regular and plentiful..
that im starting to believe in wad some of my fwns like to say to me.

"ure full of shit mans".

shrug.

well.
at least my diet is good!
and im definitely not facing constipation problems!
thump my chest. :D

`l am my own man
3:00 AM.

been a mighty long time since i blogged yar. grin.
was so caught up with my common tests..
and common tests.
urghhh..

next week is my skol break.
cant wait to go back sn and see my dear everyday.
any interested party to go back sn, remb to cal me yeah? :)

reached home at 3+ am.
phwooof...
must be the power of starbucks mocha blended.

had supper with nicole.
another ten thousand years never see fwn. :D
mans.. sure miss them loads..

alrite alrite.. books time again.
gotta work real hard.
afterall, the term's coming to an end. hehe.

and so i repeat..
next week my hols..
so ure guys better cal me out sia.
hahaha.

okays. cut out the crap.
have fun!

`l am my own man
2:06 AM.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

caught war of the worlds with my darling.
it was bad; the steven spielberg film.
but the company is wad it matters.

it was freezing cold inside i swear.
you can almost hear the howl of the air-condn
like the movie rolling with you in it.

and than we snuggled close tgt.
i nearly died with a burst of happiness
which lasted til the very end of the show.

it was simply amazingly.

and i managed to captivate
and stored that part of the scene
locked in my memory.
and plays it for the rest of the days
the player itself never ever worn out.

`l am my own man
2:46 PM.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

flashback

i am so tied up to my neck with project work, tennis and swimming that i hardly have time to go out! great sadness i proclaimed..!! but amazingly, im pretty comfortable with this arrangement in my life. make me feel useful and not simply wasting my life away.

play's over! now it's time to get serious guys!! vroom vroooomm.. :D:D

went for stnicks art appreciation play over at Singapore Conference Hall. nice nice aj accompanied me dere to support my dearie who is one of the scriptwriters. thanks thanks AJ!! hahaha.

mans! aint im proud of her? she's good man. i dino my gerfwn has such potential and such a powerful mind at work i must say! hehe.
we went out during the interval and stayed outside til the end of the event. my dearie is so drained that she lay on my shoulder most of the time. poor ger..

saw quite a few ppl in fact. dora was dere with her juniors i think.. and with that specs of hers. hahah. i thot it was funny that someone with nearly perfect eyesight shld have to wear specs to watch a concert with such a big stage at that sumore. hmm.. :D

had prata with chiki over at thomson prata house.
it was yummy but the size of it..
wells. i rather not dwell in it. im sure chiki will agree with me. grin.

we had quite a spread. not exactly alot of pratas but i was bursting by the time i finished with the dinner supper wadeva you call it. :))

and guess wad?
chiki wana go for a pool game over at amk.. but with my persuasive powers (which act amts to nthg much cause she's so easy-gg.. :D), we went back to yishun for bus-rides. hehe. it was cool can. and i literally mean it!! hahahh.

poor chiki was freezing al the way. the powers of slimming i must say!!!!! hahahah. shall keep my mouth shut at this point. hehe.

pondering whether to accompany chiki to the Good Charlotte concert..
70bucks.. stil okay larh.
but Good Charlotte..
umm.

now doing my proj.
cant wait to see my dearie this wed.
eyes brighten up!
i miss her plenty mans.. :((

and I AM so sad i din go for the milkrun.
heard my dearie is super hot dancing inside zouk before their gang got chased out by cheong.
shake head.

wad can i say?
the vp is just too hard on the gers..
or that my dearie is simply too wild?

well, guess either way it's true.

but wad to say?
my dear is just the way she is. :)))
and i simply love her for that! give a sheepish grin. :D:D

and im glad for not making the wrong choice. smiles.

dearie says:
yes baby, i love you too. ;)
with my heart and soul.

`l am my own man
5:06 AM.