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`to the only thing that's true

Sunday, January 29, 2006

both hands on the curve of her hip bone directly below her waist, we swayed together with the music, our feet barely moving. we stayed on the dance floor, song after song, returning to the table occasionally to take a quick rest and sip of our juice. the loud and driving beat of the bass drum reached from the club and continued to pump my adrenaline high. gazing at her sensual dance to the beat of the songs, my heart swelled with a certain pride.

as the music throbbed around us, i pressed her tight to my body. the eye contact and the isolation from the crowd gave it an added quality of sexiness that i hadnt experienced before. den i realized. in the past, i had always danced to the music, but not really with my partner. the connection i felt with her, something that was more than mere physical, gave an explosive new dimension to the moment.

i have never felt so alive before.
and more importantly, i know doubtlessly, that our hearts and bodies belong together.

`l am my own man
10:56 AM.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

yesterday was our eighth month anniversary.

simply cant believe time passes us so fast. soon, i'l be having my attachment. and it's gonna be one year since i worked at Roland Swimschool. time sure noe how to creep us by silently.

my day began with a bad start. projs were screwing up. mails started to fail and people not receiving needed documents. but it ended beautifully with me lying right beside her. as i kissed her to bed, i noe this is one girl i wld not have mind being tgt with for the rest of my life.

she's so sweet. so lovely and adorable. so smart and witty. funny and adventurous. faithful to the very bit. and she loves me. wad more can i ask for. :)

we were supposed to catch Memoirs of the Geisha. but due to time constraint, we stayed at her house instead. went to toa payoh lorong 8 to eat the delicious kway chap. it was certainly nice and worth the effort gg down, but it soon promised not to be the end of the story.

went to coco latte at Gallery hotel with kane and juan. all of us got the VIP card! quite pretty too. cork up a random ic no for eliza when filling in the form for the VIP card. it looked so phony. guess it doesnt matter as long as they took it. hahah.

it was a blasted free flow of tequila, whisky, vodka shots and cranberry vod burbon al the way to gin and ton. but no white russian which is my dear's favorite. had a satisfying glass of gin and ton (it happened to be one of my favs) after which i sticked to orange juice. leave the drinking to my love. i'll clear up the mess later.

it was such a fantastic time chilling and unwinding for al o us. pity some fwns din managed to join in. clubbing again next fri. life is promising to be better mans. hahah.

sent eliza home at abt 12. she was alred swaying and staggering against me. this lit ger had her fair share of drinks. she only puked when she's safely beside her toilet bowl with me stroking her back. it's a good thing afterall since i cant imagine puking al over in public. hmm.

the only disappointing stuff over the night was that i puked out my dinner at eliza's place. we were puking alongside each other. but me into a plastic bag. i guessed i dun have to say and you can just imagine how gross it is. hahah.

luckily, it was only a mild food poisoning. feeling better now after a day's of rest. guess the mishaps turn out to be a blessing instead. it gave me some reason to stayover and spend a couple more hours with my dear without worrying to rush off to work.

she came over to visit me just now. the sweet bliss of it al simply took my pain away. as we lay down tgt, i felt so blessed i cld've died in peace. at least, i wld've known that here, there's this one ger who really love me for me.

`l am my own man
10:51 PM.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

one more day to go. .

and i'll have finished the projects for the week.

feel like dying alred.

im suffering from an overdosage of computer flash.

`l am my own man
3:59 PM.

Monday, January 16, 2006

i need a break.

tired and washed out, like how an old rag would feel.

al the assignments, tests, classes and new tuition job have my lungs screaming for air. energy draining, rationality spinning outta control. all senses seem to be seeping out rapidly in a single night.

i cant seem to find the safe and secure cove that's always been around.

i cant seem to see her anymore.

it's as if im constantly up on my toes pulled in tight strings. nothing i do puts me down with the ease i used to have.

sometimes, i wish it had never happened before.

the sense of losing grip. i no longer noe wad's gg on. i only hear a familiar song playing at the back of my head. and it's gone before i can put a name to it. a certain sad and melancholy ring it has to the song.

i miss the good old times.

sometimes, i wish i have the power to turn back time. to the times when it all happened. when al the innocence and silly love's around. stuff when lost, is seemingly hard to get it back again. it will forever remains as an untied knot inside.

once in a while when the old knot tightens, it just squeezes the breath out of you. it forces you to open ure eyes and look around the surrounding. hit with the familiar stinking sinking sensation, that's becoming way too clear as times passes.

i need peace.
and i reach out to it, like a begger with outstretched hands.

`l am my own man
12:30 AM.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Announcements!

PIMPFACTORY presents:

BACK TO THE SKOL PARTY on 27th january!
come in your old school uniform to the 'Pavilion'
@ Far East Square!!

Presale tix at $18.

gonna go for the part with the gang. so exciting!
interested parties can get the tickets from me. :)

ohh. hols tmr!
im a happy bird! hahaha.

`l am my own man
11:50 AM.

Monday, January 02, 2006

i cant believe two weeks have passed since i last ended skol. gotta go back to skol tm. snort. i have never been so blissfully in love as i've been in these two weeks. been meeting eliza almost everyday. staying over almost every other days, sometimes, three days in a stretch. i guess her parents are kinda used to it. the only condition is that i've to slep on a mattress. shrug. it's no big time 'cept the mattress is urh not very comfortable ya. i miss the warmth of her body. it's so soothing. i can go to bed in just a second. smiles.

we studied tgt most of the times. well. supposed to i guess. but at times, we would be couch potatoes and watch dvds as we chew on our pizzas. snacking almost every other minute (mostly for eliza ya. grin), on our recently discovered new favourite, the Dove choco.

we spent lesser times outside; and more time at home. sometimes hers, at times mine. this time's christmas and new year are not celebrated in the least. just pretty bored abt the whole idea ya. it's time to couch and catch up on all the shows, the vds and dds.

gonna take my ncap soon. National Coaching Accreditation Programme. would be very busy i guess. okays. gonan watch my Chinese Tall Story. think it's so crappy but i think it's gonna be funny. hahah.

my gerfwn's blog: cuttingroom-.blogspot.com

she's here alred. gotta chao.
cya guys soon! :)

`l am my own man
1:42 PM.