
`i've waited all my life "Keeping a secret is a discipline. I never used to think of myself as a good liar, but after having had some practice I had adopted the prevaricator's credo that one doesnt so much fabricate a lie as marry it. A successful lie cannot be brought into this world and capriciously abandoned; like any committed relationship, it must be maintained, and with far more devotion than the truth, which carries on being carelessly true without any help. By contrast, my lie needed me as much as I needed it, and so demanded the constancy of wedlock: Till death do us part." `l am my own man
Have you felt the beauty of a smile, `l am my own man
I had a dream last night. `l am my own man
`l am my own man
my defence system finally broke down and you see it coming out through my mouth. `l am my own man
OMG OMFG!!! `l am my own man
i've just visited kayne's blog. `l am my own man
this is really strange. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
We Need To Talk About Kevin
Lionel Shiver
3:42 PM.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
the warmth of a touch or the bliss of
simply watching the world go by...
Share a little time and imagination with us.
Let's indulge in Life's Simple Pleasures.
i saw this at the back of a Mr Bean carrier. i see i am not the only firm believer of simplicity itself is the beauty of life.
after so many years, i still secretly have a thing for movies with a happily-ever-after ending. if proven otherwise, you would be able to hear the sinking disappointment from my leaden footsteps leading out of the theatre.
or simply a silent companion sitting on the swing next to you under a normal day of clear blue sky. both of you swinging higher and higher with each kick and jerk in the air, pondering about life and what it has in store for you as you reach for the sky. allowing your mind to wander at free will, with not a bit of worry weighing at the back of your head.
life is unavoidable of love; a true piece of evidence i see in my friends.
a love is complicated only when you make it out to be.
fantasy and reality- you choose for yourself the threshold to cross.
to me, making decisions are just about the hardest things in life.
to weigh each component carefully
afraid of tipping the equilibrium of the balance.
but fundamentally, the girl who believes in fairytales still believe in spinning fantasy into reality.
and if it doesnt, it would be a beautiful dream.
just about another unfuliflled bit of dream to add to the collection.
come to think of it, i barely slept the past two days.
but at least midyear's over and i can breathe for a moment.
following the schedule are proj datelines.
im gonna start tonight so that the ghost of procastination wont be able to get to me.
goodnight folks.
(gotta catch a wink first.)
and i will see you guys in a while.
A Perfect Sonnet- Bright Eyes
5:10 AM.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
It felt so real i can almost taste the moistness of your lips..
6:29 AM.
Monday, March 17, 2008





Kris' Sun(day) Kids!
12:27 PM.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
been a really long time since i tasted vomit.
still an unpleasant experience at that.
the late nights, 2-3 hours of eyes-closing moments. never quite work out well in my system.
im out.
even when the guts proved otherwise, my legs have taken a walk.
and somewhere buried deep within, i knew it quite a while back.
delusional is never my style.
'The pill's too hard to swallow.
It wont roll in. And i got choked.'
i dont take to pills. simply for that very fact.
pragmatism is the order of the day- even for the next in line.
i have found my rule of thumb- albeit a long detour.
im back folks.
this is me speaking- as crystal loud and clear as before.
'Im on my way rolling.
Not on pills, but in life.'
Even if it's not entirely true for now, in time to come, i know it will be.
8:57 PM.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
SHEENA BACK LATEST BY MAY 24!!! I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!
you know what ger, we're really gonna spend like some quality time sleeping over and having a hell of a time fooling around!!
OMG. give sheena a super duper big hugg!!!!
let's keep up with our emails alrite! ure like so missed larh bitch. hahahhahaha. love you to a million bittss!
mwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHH!
(oh btw, how did it go? did you manage to escape NYU meal plans with ure newly declared Halal status? hahah)
5:41 PM.
seeing kayne and claire's happy pictures pasted in one of the numerous entries, it just makes me smile.
lately, i remembered lots of laughing. laughing and a couple of serious talks. but i haven remembered the last time i see anything that makes me smile the way i do now.
i miss everyone.
aj, with whom i have been trying to arrange a meet-up so many a times, but i think we only managed once.
kane, juan, deb..
and kayne and claire eliza (the last time we met was when she visited my mum during cny)..
i miss all of you guys.
plenty.
soon ya.
soon i will be joining you guys, chilling like how we have always been previously, without much of a worry in our little heads.
now, it's the time to just work hard.
work really hard..
and enjoy the fruits of various aspects later. (:
5:28 PM.
i saw candice last night. i even sat down opposite her at Liat Starbucks.
and surprisingly.. i felt fine. i even felt sorry for a moment (urgg) when i saw her. and to think i would be so repulsed at her mere sight.
she texted her 'sorry' before i came, i accepted.
i guess time does has its own way of straightening things out doesnt it?
but a lot of credit goes to audrey i suspect. that girl's just so sweet. still got to say this: thanks for speaking up for me ya (even though i know you wont be reading this. :) )
guess it's one friendship patched back huh. but as for L's.. let us just not touch that terrain ya. all i can say is, it will take one, a really long time to mend the cracked surface, let alone when it comes to me and andrew.
on a light happy note, i went back early at 3plus last night! haha. one proj down, another two to go by monday. i seriously hate my procastination. i so believe it would be the cause of my downfall one day mans.
and im happy for andrew. i think she knows why. grin. three eggs in a basket. wow.. that's really quite a mouthful isnt it? hahahhahaha.
midyear on the 15 and 22. and after that, im free.. free for at least a little little while. grin.
meanwhile, some distractions not to be missed:
kim's gonna be back on the 8 and the long-awaited durian feast is finally to come! (smack lips!)
Herstory on the 13 and yes, i will go, but not to Play on thursday anymore please.
12:29 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll