
`i've waited all my life Dearest dirty lit pig, `l am my own man
HEEELLLLLOOOOO EVERYBODY! grinn. did ure miss me? hehhee. alrite mans. been away for a long time to deal with my nightmares. now, a refreshed person! hahaha. act abt to play tennis, but now im playing with the comp at aranda country club. blame it on the bad weather! true enough, the weather is like so much cooler with al the rain and so on, but ISNT IT A BIT TOO MUCH!! tsktsk. `l am my own man
thinking of you tonight.. `l am my own man
`l am my own man
hello everybody! `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Sunday, October 23, 2005
hope ure up and stating a fresh new day ya? grin. cant wait to see you on mon although i'll merely be ure tutor. kiss ure cheek lovingly. work hard alrite? you have my very fullest support! and big big surprises after ure chin Os!! hahha.
i miss you so much.
really a lot a lot.
Love you with every bit of me
baby
and to the rest of my gang, i have forgotten you not!!
to DEAREST..
lerrick, miss drinking coffee smoking and chilling with you. hope everything been gg smoothly for you ya? hehe. leave time aside for our coffee at spin! :)
kanie, certainly hope you manage to get that job. it's so hard to get a job that you love doing. goodluck ya!hughugs!
aj, busy busy lit bee! miss our crappy talks. hope we can meet up later! :D
bj, stop snuggling and watching videos with ure gerfwn at home and come out toot!
devonieeeeeeeee.. please pick a better date when it comes to oour dates alriiiiiiiiiite?? i wana see you soon soon..
and to the respective dasao and xiaosao men! hehe. i also miss ure loads! miss everyone! and hmm.. eliza lee the most. :D:D
to aileen, kaizhen, panda hazzle, hope everyone been crapping well ya!
alrite. such a lame entry. hahaha.
this is wad i act wana bring to attention!
HALLOWEEN NIGHT AT HOME! DO MAKE URESELF AVAILABLE! UNDERAGED ALLOWED BY ORGANISER FWN! SO HURRY DOWN AND GET TICKETS!!
$14 per head.
venue: boatquay, former-monks.
MUCH FUN GUARANTEED INCLUDING PRIZES GIVEN FOR THE MOST OUTSTANDING DRESSING!
T-H-E E-N-D
5:53 AM.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
so how's everybody? hmm.. i see im not the only one who haven been blogging ya. grin widely. been having a blasted hols for abt two weeks alred. mostly accomplished wad i wana do during this break but there's sthg that i wana do with someone but the time's not ripe yet. speaking in riddle huh? hehe.
the rain's stopped. but the canal flooded.
hell. nthg to do with the tennis court. time to set off.
wishing everyone a big fat nice time jollying during the hols! it's precious time meant to be well-spent and not idled away. wink!
some really great lines from the jap film, Crying out Love, in the Centre of the world.
it's a big deal when someone dies.
memories, images of the happy times,
linger like a stain.
heaven's just sthg invented by survivors.
my beloved is there.
someday, we'll reunite.
we wan to believe that.
i stil cant let go of this world.
a survivor who keeps clinging to this world.
al anyone left behind can do,
is to tie up the loose ends.
this applies. to ure beloved who's alive.
it's alrite to smile back at the past,
but to dwell in it wld be to bury ureself in the graveyard of memory lane.
9:20 AM.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
tues to wed to thurs and fri and.. finally to tues again.
after all that has happened,
i cant wait for the time to see you again.
to pull you into my arms..
and bury my face in ure soft scented hair.
you just mean so much to me.
i will be here waiting for you, to take my breathe away once more.
and i remb ure promise to me.
i will be waiting for you to "hook" me out.
only you've the ability to i guess.
i cant bring myself to be by the others. smiles.
best of luck my sweet dear.
few more days and it will be over.
kiss ure cheek gently.
your love,
baby
5:02 PM.
"we are so complicated inside.
there's something in us called the unconscious that we're completely unaware of. it practically dominates our lives, and we don't even know it.
very often, the subconscious expresses itself in dreams. the dream is the product of a transaction between conscious and unconscious wishes. and the results during sleep are naturally very different from those during the waking hours.
dreams are full of unexpressed fears and hopes, things we never even think of consciously. we think of them unconsciously deep down inside ourselves, and they come out in dreams. they don't always come out straight, though. sometimes, they come out in symbols and we've to learn to interpret the symbols.
dreams.. are one of the ways of getting to a person's unconscious.
everyone dreams.
it's just that we don't remember a lot of them. we repress them. we sorta push them away and forget them, because sometimes they're too painful.
a lot of times they're not pleasant.
our unconscious is like a process. it's full of repressed fears and hatreds, things that we're afraid to bring out into the open.
and sometimes, these things rule our lives. "
it certainly cleared alot of doubts.
and i've realized, wad's inside us is the greatest mystery of all. i just hope someday.. i wld have the chance to confront my deepest fears and remove it forever from my life.
4:29 AM.
Monday, October 03, 2005
hahaha. been AGES since i last blogged hurh? grin.
been helluva hectic schedule ever since skol exams commenced.
with swimming and exams prep work to rush..
and then swimskol promotion at pasir ris.
shake head in exhaustion. but now..
PHEW!
aint im glad it's over?
the exams and weekends. hahahha. :D:D:D:
oh wells.
too much to blog if i really have to recollect every happening.
exams' fine.. i guess.
hope i'll see some As on my grade sheet this time round. haha.
children's day is pretty eventful. my kids are so hyped up upon the mention of presents.. kids will always be kids i guess. hahaha. love them totally! so cute cute cute! nearly as cute as my gerfwn. hehe.
sthg interesting to share:
A Greek philosopher said that two people who are true friends are like two bodies with one soul.
make me ponder deeply when i read that. two bodies with one soul.
how often you find that in ure life except with ure partner?
few i guess.
and i think that would just be enough. :)
2:52 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll