`i've waited all my life it's been a week and my viral infection seems to be recovering quite nicely. tm's the last day of my course of medication and you cant imagine just how freaking glad i am. not like it does any major damage to my body, but i hate taking medicine and those who know me would also know that i cant swallow pills for nuts. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Sunday, October 28, 2007
and.. it has to create swelling again. but somehow, i wasnt as bothered as before. i guess it isnt as bad as i used to think it is after all.
spent the whole day at home, reading my notes and watching dvds. simple clean fun!
oh, and some news for celebration. i haven smoke since thursday.
guess i might be able to settle to being a social smoker after all. i have never really feel a need to quit. to be honest, i pretty much enjoy smoking. and im willing to compromise at the expense of my health. strangely, it's some sort of a trade-off which i find worthy.
smoking.. its definition varies for each individual.
to me, besides it being a habitual act, i find that my feelings and thoughts seem to be magnified when i smoke. it crystallizes my state of mind and emotions and allows me to have a better grasp of what i am thinking and how i am feeling. each inhaling and exhaling motion seem to slow down the rush of my blood and the frenzy of my mind and allow me to understand and if possible, take better control of my inner emotions.
but, being able to do that doesnt make me any happier.. that i can feel so clearly what my heart is feeling.
on a lighter note, smoking lesser also makes you a healthier person (and improves your stamina too).
from this day onwards, i shall try to smoke lesser and study harder.
a stab at being a better student ya. grin.
3:13 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll