`i've waited all my life had a really nice time cosying at starbucks last night, wad's with the light drizzle pattering and sliding down the wide trademark green umbrellas shelters at starbucks. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
last night, our All-brothers-Night out include lerrick, andrew and SHIYUN! surprise surprise folks! haha. she has officially joined our monday coffee sessions (thou she's not going to be a regular goer in our little club). i cant help but smile thru the conversations and my mocha-vanilla frap. my three best fwns were all seated around me and i was just thinking, i cant possibly ask for more.
thanks to her bright cheerful presence, we had a blast laughing our heads off. i cant remember the last time since we laughed so hard. jeez. we need more new happy members i say!
come to think of that, sometimes, i feel so gay with andrew and lerrick. we even share intimate little grins much to the disgusted discovery of eliza! L and i din even realize it mans. shiver. but i swear it was comical eliza's dramatic reaction. it's like she has just pounced upon some major scandal of the century. i mean, what's new right- her drama and our personal understanding.
after a much deserved long sleep, i woke up to dinner with my mum. the name-shuming- just tumbled outta my mouth and my mum actually remembered her! of course i seized the opportunity and asked my mum abt all that she think and feel abt shu. first thing my mum said: she's beautiful. (omg, i love you ma.) she admitted that she cant really say much abt her since they din really talk 'cept for the polite greetings. i was just thinking.. i think my mum has long-forgotten her adamant statement of "bringing eliza back if not a real guy home!" with regard to the issue of my love life.
i love her for her scatterbrain in this aspect. it's so endearing. i cant help but say this: my mum loves me so damn much. earlier this year during reunion dinner, my mum actually asked abt meixuan (eliza) and why she din come over for dinner with us (my reply: she's urh, having her own family's reunion dinner too? dots.), my brother nearly flipped. he gently accused my mum of "condoning" my lesbian traits. my mum simply good-naturedly said that im still young and wait-till-she's-25-den-we-talk-abt-it and end the conversation there and then. i adore my mum. i was so close to kissing her toes at the dinner table. not only she loves me so to cover my acts with her not-so-rational-and-a-little-in-denial reasoning, but she still thinks im her small little baby. "you know, I love you ma."
i have recently realized a new fav pastime to indulge in. and, that's gonna be a little secret what that is.
for now, goodnight everyone.
sweet dreams.
and to gerfwn:
have fun ya where you are. kisses and love.
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Both of us were afraid of the passing time.
We din care what it was,
just talk and talk for a long time.
It didnt matter what we talked abt.
I just wanted to listen to ure voice.
Forever.
Forever and ever.
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3:01 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll
