`i've waited all my life Thursday 13Sep2007 1502hrs `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Chivas Regal.
Whiskey.
(on the rock)
Lifeband.
Paulaner.
i marvel at the efficiency of the alcohol that coasts through my body and it's getting stronger despite a slow down of the drinking. then again, im a slow reactor to the effects of alcohol and more often than i like it end up in delirium before any realization can sink in. (and you probably realize at this point im a mighty lousy drinker).
i say bye to my fwn and happily hop into the cab with lerrick. poor lerrick has to suffer the brute of my esctasy in the cab all the way to MOS. it is phenomenon the way i go at her. seriously. i have never whack and laugh as hard as i have done in my entire life of drinking-clubbing scene. poor thing. she is complaining whether the repeated smacking is partly for shu. (give a small smile here) and when i reach MOS eugene takes over the reins and suffers immensely (to my utter satisfaction) under my numerous blows and kicks. but he keeps digging at me, totally deserve every punch i throw at him. urgg.
a forced tipping of ablow-job with whipped cream and grenadine to top it off at the club nearly set me off. but it is really good stuff, not as strong as the liquor earlier, so i can still happily dance to the trance music at the main hall. and im beginning to like it. i mean trance. grin.
more booze and clubbing people.
i can really make do with a lifetime of this.
P.S. Yesterday, i saw you at the club. you were wearing your skinny black jeans with your off-shoulder black blouse. the outfit that swept me off my feet the first time i saw you in it at Esplanade. it was glimpses but i believed it's you. i wished you could stay a little longer so we could have our slow dance together. i really miss that small bit about us. don't you too?
Last night marks one month since she left.
Let's hope believe that the first month is the hardest
and the rest that follows is gonna be much easier to deal with.
1:38 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll
