`i've waited all my life it's been a mad hour rush from the moment i stepped into the office till now. managed to grab my lunch with roland and back to the mad rush. but this time, alone. was scheduling interviews, classes, collecting payment, picking numerous calls for enrolment and interviewing the permanent administrative ger. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Thursday, August 23, 2007
she's a malay. 20 years of age and is very affable and courteous despite my walking around talking to her, screaming into the phone at Roland and shuffling papers and files around. im trying to find a damn employment form and i swear, HE IS testing my patience the way he guides me to the right cabinet. throughout the whole phone conversation, which unfortunately, the poor ger has to go through it all, i cant seem to stem my usual obscenities i tend to put across when im frustrated with Roland. Phrases like "damn you", "what the hell are you talking about", "that's stupid larh", "oh my god, why din you tell me earlier", "hello, there's two fax machines here, which one" are openly thrown across the room as i walk all over in search of a damn miserable piece of paper. okay. make it two but hell.
sometimes, trust me, it's really very trying and exasperating to communicate in decent language with my boss. and i guess he's used to my flowery terms and he doesnt mind what form my words take to be conveyed across to him. he's a nice boss i mean. i love him and at sporadic moments, even admire his drive and shrew business acumen. and he knows that im the only one who openly criticize and argue with him relentlessly and not hesitant in the least to voice out my displeasures towards his nonchalent and close-to-irresponsible attitude towards work at certain parts.
anyway, i asked the interviewee to pardon my language and she merely said "oh, it's okay". totally unfazed by my lack of fine demeanour. i liked her already. im sure we will get along just fine. (:
oh, i just managed to read my gerfwn's blog. it was a little disturbing to read her entry especially the last paragraph. im getting a little worried. i sure hope the over-dosage of orientation has not over-stimulate her brain. i quite love my gerfwn for being the sane old sensible her. (:
my God. my left ear is hurting badly again. it's been so for the past few days. i wonder whether that has anything to do with the office phone. it has a funny sound over the phone and ever since i started office work here, my ear's been hurting. it can be so painful that i can only grit my teeth and wait for the pain to pass. urggg.
now's 2006hrs. going off to look for sheena and probably for a stayover. think kerrie weiling and zibbie's gonna be there too. if only she can meet me after work tm, but she's meeting ten thousand other people and i dun wana be part of that. so. sigh.
suddenly, i miss my gerfwn. dun ask me why it's so random. she always manage to creep into my brain even when im at my busiest. wonder what she's doing now. alrite. think i better leave the office now.
5:25 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll
