`i've waited all my life 13August 2007. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Monday, August 13, 2007
it's four in the morning and i've decided it's breakfast time. (:
i like the tranquility that comes in the wee hours of the morning. it's a real therapeutic treat and allows me to breathe properly after a long tiring day. the brilliant finale would be to sneak a stick at your window and stare into the darkness that looms behind the mass of concrete.
as my eyes starts to lose its focus, my mind begins to empty itself and i can feel my muscles slowly loosening. it takes only about a short fifteen minutes and my heart would feel so much lighter. it makes me feel more alive rather than lonely as i look upon the endless stretch of quiet streets from my window.
things are happening too fast for my accustomed unhurried pace in life. so much has taken place and im too caught up to really be conscious of my surroundings. as i look out of the window, i take in all the details i have been missing for the past weeks.
there will be just this tiny voice that keeps buzzing around my head..
"all's real and nothing is made up".
it seems like my life has been caught in a major whirlpool and i have just managed to get swept out of it. it is amusing that a commonplace person like me with the most placid character you can possibly find in this hectic and exhausting place we live in should be caught in this entanglement.
the only thing i desire infinitely is peace and a world of my own where no one is allowed to come in easily. but i have just allowed her to step in so effortlessly into my world which i so valiantly try to protect and, unquestionably, stepped into hers too.
despite her physical absence, she still very much exist in my world. and frankly, till now, i am still very amazed and very much delighted at her unwitting entry into my life. under my circumstances, one might think that there should be little joy left to celebrate, but right now (and in the time to come), im indulging in a state of euphoria.
yes, i admit sometimes, especially in the dead of the night, my lips would still quiver uncontrollably, but i realized, i have found my happiness, or rather it has found me. all i really need to do now, is to study hard and try to take my mind off missing her too much. even the sound of it is hard. but i know, we will pull each other through. it has never been easy right from the beginning. dun worry my friends, i know we will do just fine. (:
4:01 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll
