`i've waited all my life HAUNTED `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Depression is seductive..
it offends and teases, frightens you and draws you in, tempting you with its promise of sweet oblivion, then overwhelming you with a nearly sexual power, squirming past ure defences, dissolving ure will, invading the tired spirit so utterly that it becomes difficult to recall that you ever lived without it..
or to imagine that you might live that way again.
with al the guile of satan himself, depression persuades you that its invasion was all ure own idea, that you wanted it all along. it fogs the part of the brain that reasons, that knows right and wrong. it captures you with its warm, guilty hateful pleasures, and, worst of al, it becomes familiar. all at once, you find ureself in thrall to the very thing that most terrifies you. ure work slides, ure fwnships slide, ure love relationship slides, but you scarcely notice.
to be depressed..
is to be half in love with disaster.
i remembered what she said that night.
it suddenly hit me in a rush of adrenaline.
i wish she can take back her words.. but i noe,
the wound will not stop its gushing. touch it lightly..
i really wish the words haven come from ure mouth.
i really do.
7:12 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll