`i've waited all my life as the soft crooning of guang yang droons on in the background.. `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
a moist and warm droplet falls through the air and land on my hand. and den a second one.. the bitterness of it caresses my lips and sting my emotions so such that i feel like a dam has burst from within me.
(closes my eyes.. you promised never to leave me..)
i dunwan anything very fantastic in my life..
just wan a simple life. a small group of close-knitted friends. a ger who understands me and for me to love.
and im contented.
a particular deep sorrow is on the rampant, one that seizes with a vehemence, slowly forcing the life-strength outta me.. slowly suffocating me.
i am just me.
as harmless as a lit bird can be. i look up and see vultures circling around the sky above. eager to dive in for a feast .the tall trees surround.. shutting out wadeva little sunlight there is left. the sky looks dark and gloomy, and if i am to stare hard enuf, a trace of ominous calling in the air seems to linger in the atmosphere. the trees seem to have shut out every shimmer of hope together with the sunlight. it forces upon my world, a dark unwelcoming canvas thrown unmecifully and unwillingly onto me. trapping me in its depth.
i cant hear anything. it is a pitch darkness inside. the only thing i can hear and feel is a distinctive thumping rythme. my heart beating. a proof that i am stil alive.
i believe in the inherent goodness of humans. i believe.. that the most coldblooded murderer have a soft core within him. we are born to love.. not to bear the suffering of this sad world. and no one can brush away love with just a simple stroke of hand. no.. it's just aint right..
i aint wan any facade. i aint wan any lie. i just wana be myself. and i wana believe in you. i really wan to.
im sick of asking myself how can people look at me straight in the eye and yet managed to put on a front. al the pretense. all the lying. i hate it.. i loath it. to the very core. and im running outta excuses to cover up for the things people that i stil love do to me.
i've decided. im gonna cut the kite string and let everything go.
i guess.. it is all for the best. the infamous line i've so often heard.
9:00 AM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll