`i've waited all my life i went back to stnicks today with shiyun. was late in the morning so cab down. spent more than 15mins waiting for a dumb cab. urghh!! but luckily sy reached stnicks at the same time as me! `l am my own man
`to cross this line
`to the only thing that's true
Thursday, February 24, 2005
had a damn good catching up session. aint im glad! smile happily.
spent a little time with eliza too. she's damn crap lah seriously. i never see her stop laughing for once, even when we're laughing at her uhh seemingly outta point joke, comment wadeva she is saying at that point. hahah. but she sure lift up my mood by a bit. :) and she appreciates the painting i've made for her. even tho the colours are al wrong and it was kinda burnt cause it was put in the heater for so long. at least she like it cause it was the thot that counts. but the one i've spent so much effort and time for the special someone. it wasnt in the least bit appreciated. and it was even dumped back at me. it hurts den. but now, it's happily pasted on my door. i wont take it down. i've thot of throwing it away. but my very first painting.. i think i wld keep it as a momento. smiles.. i wish her all the best. sometimes. i wld stop my work and just stare into space. that was when she is in my mind. i wont wana look back again. but it gets rally hard esp at night.. so hard. look away
aniway, it was such a pity sy has to leave for tuition at one plus. was pretty late too. managed to reach skol by 3pm. went to the self-access lab to study my econs test for this fridae! so guai right.. hehe. now that im alone, i shall pat myself instead. smilessmiles.
tennis was great today. had a long time wif zhuzhu before that.. let out a breath tgt wif al the stress and sadness. feel much better. smiles! i wasnt the least bit of tired after three straight hours of tennis. left late today. miss quite a bit of the 9pm show at ch8. :(( life is so sad cause that's the only show i watch nowaday. no desperate housewives, no american idols no extreme gourmet no anything! just proj proj.. den study and study!! and no more msging anymore. suddenly.. i seem to have a lot of free time. and im trying to put away the emptiness by piling all the books on me. im working myself so hard now. 6 hours of sleep daily. no break. just occupy myself continuously in my study. i dun get tired easily now. sighh.
more awakening hours mean more suffering.
that is my life for now.
im taking it. never gonna leave it again.
4:16 PM.
`themood
*bien`
`themusic `thelyrics Lonely im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Im so lonely so lonely
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Im so lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
So lonely so lonely
Im so lonely so lonely
Artist - Akon
Song - Lonely
Album - Trouble
.Lonely.
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll